Everyone on my swim team is perfect. O.K., not perfect but they don't do anything wrong. Over half of them are hardcore Christians. I already tried that path. When I was in like seventh grade I went to youth group alot and listened to Christian bands because I thought it was nice that they were using the word of God creativly. But then I just started thinking about it and none of it really made sense. I started learning more in school and if the things they were teaching us in Science class was true, then the things I learned in church must be wrong. Science had more proof. It makes more sense to me, so I went with that.

So, needless to say: the girls I spend most of my time with are almost all virgins. They're extreamly nice girls, but we don't think along the same path at all. These are girls that freak out if someone starts undressing without holding a towel around themselves. Hello, we all know what's down there, and if you don't want to see it, don't look. Whatever.

These girls are straight-edge. They don't sneak out. They don't get drunk. They aren't friends with the guys who smoke all the time. On Friday nights they do their homework. At school dances they don't go wild. They don't go to shows and join pits and learn two stepping. 

This is all fine. I mean, it's their choice. Most of them don't push it on me. The only bad thing is that I can't really talk to them about my Friday night. You know, when Bret punched out Dudz and Kat's sister started crying. (Actually I think that that was on Wednesday night.) 

But what really bothers me is when they talk about their relationship with their family. Everyone is so close to their siblings and they enjoy family functions. Why isn't my family like that? I hate doing things with my family. Alot of the girls complain about their older brothers being overprotective and wanting to meet their dates and things like that. I didn't really think that siblings got along that well. My brother has never been protective... much less overprotective. He always helped everyone make fun of me and tease me. I don't think I've heard him stand up for me once. And he's never nice to me. The only time he's pleasant is when it will benefit him in the end. Like if Ashley of Becca is over, he might be nice to me because he wants to make out with them or something. Or if he needs me to cover for him. He'll be nice and offer to pay me or something. And then there's the times when he has too many secrets or something and he'll come up to me when I'm reading or something and just start telling me all of them, but I can't tell anyone. My brother is the biggest drug dealer in school. And I have to be his little sister. You're Justin Leicht's sister? Oh can you get me some pot? I just never really knew that families got along in real life. I thought the perfect families were just for T.V. I guess I figured every family had problems they couldn't deal with. But the only time I hear about these problems is with me and Zak and Ashley. Everyone elses families are fine. What's up with that?

So, today was interesting. Last night Zak and I had a condom break so, today, I had to go to Planned Parenthood and get Emergency Contraceptive Pills (Morning-After Pill.) Zak brought me. I was all like nervous and embarassed at first, but Zak calmed me down by being all relaxed and holding my hand and talking about stupid stuff like "Oh, this room is purple like my room, and it has blue chairs, that's perfect." and "I love these doors, they're so shiny. It's tight." What a loser. But it helps, 'cause now everytime I walk in there I'm going to picture Zak's house (which is my favorite place in the world) and I'll be all relaxed and calm. Plus, the ladies there were really helpful and super friendly. They didn't hesitate to answer any question's and they were just amazing. I have to call back in like a week to make an appointment for birth control. Woo! (Oooh, and they gave me a bunch of free condoms, that was nice, lol.)

Ouch. The first day of practice sucks. It hurts to sit up straight. Lol. 

Also, I know way too many football players. We went outside to run on the track and the boys were on the feild doing drills. Like fifteen guys waved at me. Not sure who they were because it's very hard to distinguish them under a helmet and pads while they're being tackled 100 feet away from me. But whatev's, I waved back.

Show today kicked so much ass. I only liked some of the bands but It Said Destroy. did so amazing for their first show. I fell in love. I took a shitload of pictures, I'll post some.